nobody owns me

Nights like this doesn't come often. And when they do, they strike hard. Makes you suffocating, depressed and drown in your own emotions. I often felt sad, but I guess this is a different kind. I thought I could always be happy or at least try to be. Chapters by chapters of my life has been torn out and start over until I lost trace of reality. Now it hits me once more. I always knew they'll never get tired of me.

For once, I wish life could be less difficult, painless.. I hope for this once, it could follow my path instead of their own. I've tried hard, but we certainly can't bribe fate. They had minds on their own and even their own story to tell. If it has to happen, it will happen. Its unfair but we live by it still. Not knowing what to do or say. Just stand along the pavement and watch as a live torn down piece by piece.

I wish there's something I could do to help mine. Even those positive vibes couldn't hold on to me much longer. They'll be leaving soon and so does everyone else. They always do. I had my time to shine and they say I shine brighter than the sun. Obviously the sun doesn't like that anymore, so its taking its revenge on me. I couldn't even beat the moon. I am the stars that dies, shining but no one bothers.

The wound and cuts are deeper than he thought. I just wish that one of these days I could walk up to him and say, I could face reality by myself and I don't need your help. So effs off.