I am ready

I'm all geared up and good to go. I'm up for the changes, challenges and the barriers.

So,

BRING IT ON! ;)

Omg, I felt so great! I can't really explain it to you unless you've experience it yourself. This indescribable feeling puts a very wide smile on my face and I actually like it. This is actually one of my goals. You know to be someone I really suppose to be and not quitting along the way.

Like a friend always remind me on his MSN autoreply :
wake up with 2 choices. wake up and chase your dreams, or sleep in and... dream.


I've decided to wake up and chase my dreams and I don't regret it. You should try too. Sleeping in means you're giving up.

I am actually glad and lucky to have such friends who will stand by me along the way. I do.

[14:56] Dan: i support youuu
[14:56] Puteri A.: i know you dooooooo ;)

Thank you Dan. Thank you all. This girl shall never fail you! No, not this time :)

That's farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Gahhh, I am addicted to David Choi's - Won't Even Start! ;)

I have a feeling that today is going to be one hell of a long day! Btw..

Happy 17th Birthday Naa!
iloveyou

I was suppose to go out with her and the rest to Pavilion today but thanks Ma :( I guess I'm not going. Haihhh. Sorry babe, will make it up to you later! Promise.

Oh and just in case I forgot, tomorrow is Danial Razak's birthday. So dude (I know you're not reading this but..) Happy Birthday!

God, I am sooooo sleepy and bored. Maybe later I'll ask Daddy if I could go to the mall or something. I need new books and Fah! Please come home.. I miss you already :(

I am a fag

Starting time : 2.40pm

I am so bored. I tried filling out as much surveys as I could but gahh. I can't think! (I was talking about the answers). I feel sooooo sleepy and I feel like taking a nap but I can't. I just had my brunch and I could still feel it in my tummy. Walking, floating.. Ish. Mana boleh nap mcm ni! :(

Putt Putt..

I need a new reading substance, FAST. Before I kill someone and cause a riot! I am so faging (instead of fucking) bored! Its been 3 weeks since holiday started and I was suppose to be happy. Remember that feeling I had during finals which I can't wait for holiday to start? Yes, that feeling has dissapear. It's official, I am pathetic. Thanks for the heads up Dan.

Last night, I went offline at about 3.31am (I accidenltly look at the watch on my astro decoder and I'm not making this up) but manage to shut my eyes at around 5.44am. Shit! :( I had a terrible itching problem last night. It was all over my body, itching, red spots. Imagine that! I could die for scratching so much. I finally give up and decided to drag myself to the toilet and had a long 5th bath for the day just thinking that maybe I will get a good night sleep afterwords. But I still can't! So I decided to do a little of cleaning inside my room. New sheets, rearranging my clothes, yada yada yada and manage to finish up two designs (just for the record). After that, I still can't sleep and suddenly I remembered my ubat tahan gatal inside my red handbeg! God, that medicine works after all :P I woke up around 12.02am no thanks to Daddy. I am afraid of him so when he told me to wake up, I'll wake up for sure.

And now, here I am.

.. moody
.. sleepy

and smelly :(

Ending time : 2.51pm
xoxo

190th post.

and I'm bored! :( Fah is busy packing and Dan got exams.
Good, no entertainment for me :(
So I found this on FB. I really like to post it here. (eh suka hati la, blog aku!) :D


Fill out this fun 3 Things Survey and then share it with your friends.

3 things that scare you
- God. (Things?)
- Cats cause I'm ailurophobic =/
- And I guess a speeding car?

3 people that make you laugh
- Family (I have 7)
- Dan
- Kam Raslan

3 things you love
- Myself
- Money
- Begs

3 things you hate
- Speeding car (again.)
- Backstabbers
- And doing the laundry (which I still couldn't do :()

3 things you don't understand
- Guys
- Some of our country's law
- Politics/Microeconomics

3 things on your desk
- Sketch books
- Pencil case
- Cell phone

3 things you are wearing
- Night gowns which I wore it with a short (HAHA)
- Socks
- Undies? Gahh

3 things you want to do before you die
- Bungee jumping
- Sky diving
- Become a miss world? Hahaha! Good one.

3 countries you want to visit
- Europe
- India
- Japan :)

3 things you can do
- I could sing
- I drive
- and I could act like a normal human being (which I doubt you could:P)

3 words to describe yourself
- Rebellious
- Funny
- Talkative. (very very)

2.20 story

2.20 :

Yes, I am not yet asleep. Daddy told me to go to bed, but sorry I am just too stubborn to listen. There's no place in my heart for me to listen when I'm too caught up with online 'social activities'. No, not porn you fag! I was talking about myspace, facebook, yada yada yada. I swear I could bore myself someday.

Anyway, I was reading Fiza's blog just now. There's this interesting post of hers that caught my attention. It's something about things that men should understand about woman. I must say it is really really interesting.

Go and read it : www.fizaothman.blogspot.com

There is actually once fact that caught my attention. Just one in particular. Okayyy, all of them. But this one is a true silent killer :P

20. Don't compare us to Pamela Anderson; parts of her are fake, just remember that. (Remember: you have a better shot at us than you ever will have with her.)

Hahahah! I know right? It just cranks me up. There there, chillax guys. Pamela wasn't that hot pun :P There's nothing to lose. Hahaha :P

Anyway (God I use anyway too much huh?), I've been enjoying the almost single life. I am, really. Hahaha! I have friends especially tu si King to keep me company almost every night. I am not alone after all :P Face it boyfie, I don't need you. YET!

And oh, I am hungry! I am starvinggggg... I need food, fast :( And my butt hurts! Gahh

ps/ internet gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Finish writing : 2.30

haha

i was watching hitz tv just now. i just love their morning programs. front seat, out and about and just now i watch um asian portion (still watching actually). i watch aurora video for the first time and it was good. those estranged dudes are so adorable especially andy. hahaha :P

he was busy playing with the magnifying glass, trying to put together the light bulb, reading books and wear specs. haha now thats a hot geek i want to marry. till then,

xx

tuesday blues?

are you aware of the fact that garfield hates monday? well, i hate tuesday (i gotta hate one day kan?) well, especially today! last night, i sleep at about 2.45am after a looooooooong 'exs says hello' night. it was a weird night. we're reminincing, ask for forgiveness bla bla bla. anyway, i can't manage to get a good night sleep. so at about 5.34am i went to the kitchen to get something to drink. just thinking that maybe after this thirst is gone, i'll manage to put myself back to sleep. i saw mama at the kitchen, cooking for us. she usually cook at that hour so, thats why i have all the guts in the world to drag myself into the kitchen. she didn't say anything though. well, i wasn't in the mood to talk either. then i saw daddy at the living room, sitting on the couch. probably still sleepy. he said something but i can't remember what. all i remembered was dragging myself back to bed. still, i can't shut my eyes. i kept straching! my whole body is itching. my neck, tummy, my leg, fingers.. well you pretty much get the picture. even my face is itching! but that's probably because i've been using olay total white effect. yeah, soooooooooooo effective.

as a result, i woke up at 7.15 instead of my usual 11-12. i am so proud of myself but still, sleepy. i took a long bath hoping that it'll make all those itching go away! but sure, failed. so i put on my brown shorts and bright green sweaters and drag myself out of the room. daddy didn't send nana to the nursery today. niena has a day off and daddy has a two medical checkups to attend so he's on leave. God, i am so tired...! i felt like screaming and shout like a lunatic but that wouldn't make any difference would it? well. i guess not.

x0x0

carry on

okay so i was browsing through my myspace page and i came across nana's page. nana is a friend i've known not long ago. she stayed in jb and i know her through izz. okay, so i open up her page and i found out that nana has a blog. so i open up the link to the blog la. theeeeeennn, while i was reading, i found out that she got the chance to go to Radio Rosak tour! aku taaaakk dpt, i was in bangi having exams :(

here's the link, http://www.immaturednanott.blogspot.com/

she post some amazing pictures and ada two pictures with *drum rolls!*, ANDY ESTRANGED in it! *screams!* i am so jealous :( now i got to continue screaming.

my emotion is currently unstabled.

just something to entertain myself

Name that 5 things!

Q : 5 things you must bring when you are on holiday.
A : My phone, a book so I won't bore myself to death, ipod, clothes and food. Yes, food. HAHA! :)

Q : 5 must-haves inside your beg.
A : Again, my phone. Few sets of keys (either a car key or house key), vaselin (every girl's must haves), my purse and my watch (if i didn't wear them, i put it in my beg).

Q : 5 songs you live by.
A : The Man Who Can't Be Moved by The Script, Rocket by Yuna, Creep by Radiohead, You and Me by Lifehouse (gahh!) and oh of course! Friday I'm In Love by The Cure (classic).

Q : 5 things you cannot live without.
A : Vaseline! , most certainly be food , internet connection, books and probably my phone. So, yeah.

Q : 5 people you couldn't live without.
A : Family (just to be fair, cause there 7 in my family), um.. Yana, Danial (I couldn't survive without his sarcasm), Na and Arda. There's actually more so it's kinda not fair for you to tell me to mention only 5 :(

Q : 5 must-haves in your wardrobe.
A : Jeans, tees, sleeveless, shorts and scarfs.

Q : 5 things you do when you have some free time.
A : I eat, or sleep. I probably blog or read a book or just lying on the couch and listen to some music.

Q : 5 passions.
A : I have to say music, arts (not many people know that I'm a very artistic person), I have passion in knowledge (HAHAHA!), probably studying people but no, certainly no passion for maths, yet!

Q : 5 of your favorite web sites.
A : Blogspot, Myspace, YouTube, AzLyrics and Facebook (well, not really but there you go)

Q : 5 of your favorite male actor/singer
A : Um.. Jason Mraz, cause he's the music goddess and I adore him. George Clooney, my eye candy. Hahaha! John Mayer, I simply love him. Adam Brody, my Mr Dreamy and of course, Andy Estrange! he is certainly the sexiest man ALIVE! *drooooooool*

Q : 5 of your favorite female actress/singer
A : Rachel Bilson! Hahaha, I love Bilson. Um.. oh Yuna. Estelle, I dig her British accent. Victoria B, my fashion goddess and of course, Hayley Williams (paramore), she's the shitz.

take the photo off the wall

i think that baby brother hariz, doesn't appreciate what i've been doing around the house. cleaning and all. i've dedicated my sleep to clean the house and prepare your lunch young man. and when you come home from school, what did you do? turn the house upside down again. haih, have mercy bro. you make me want to cry.

anyway mama ask if i wanted to follow daddy and nana to giant to buy some groceries. i wanted to go, i can't remember the last time i went out with daddy. or okay, i do. anyway, we went to giant to buy 'some' stuff for me to eat at home. or surprisingly they expect me to cook? anyway, we spend RM343.89 on groceries only! i really can't believe my eyes.

mama : eat it, makan dengan plastic sekali okay.

hahaha. it was funny. oh and before we left, daddy was trying to get in the car without nana noticing him. so he told me to distract nana and i did. i put her around my arms and we played helicopter game on my phone. then when he saw daddy closing the door, she go all.

nana : oi, nak ikut. oi.

and she's only three. ops, two and a half. i stand corrected. still, language little girl, language. but i was too amused to laugh so mama and i continued laughing. i still laugh when i was about to perform my maghrib. oh silly girl.

wake up call

truth has to be told, i haven't had my bath. there you have it. the complete truth. i felt so tired, not to mention these lazybones of mine are so lazy? gosh. i need a break. apparently house chores and tonnes of reading material don't entertain me much. good, blame the books now.

anyway, going to visit nasya later this evening with wawa. looking forward of seeing the old friend. my oh my, i am so full. my stomach is filled with ribena, nuggets and oh asam pedas. thank you mama.

oh and i was told by daddy that kakak got RM300 saman yesterday. that explains why he was in a bad bad mood yesterday. apparently kakak drives too fast. serves her right! she's speeding all the way to bangi with me in it. for the record, i want to get married and have kids! daddy warned us (me and niena) not to speed in the road. but i could tell you this, i could asure you that he won't allow us to drive by yourself again. now, that's sad. lets throw away our license niena. i am so upset :(

ruthless hols

i feel contented. lonely maybe? well, i just feel like i don't care. recent action shows me that i don't deserve any freedom from daddy but that's okay. he's just doing what he does best, being a dad. and thank you mama for those amazing books you bought to defeat my boredom that was trying to conquer my self conscious. you shall never win!

i think im in serious need for help. a simple question from mama was answered by my blurry faces with weird accent. a very simple question : have you had your breakfast yet? just between you and me (and probably raja), i just don't remember. but i know the way i say it macam, i-do-do-dont remmber? it finally came up to me that i am probably belong to a community with green skin, black eyes with huge heads! but why green? why not red or shocking pink? wow. that'll be great. haha. okay, back to the topic. in my defense (on the bad memory thingy) i can't even remember who my first boyfriend was. but look on the bright side, who cares? oh no, certainly not me.

for the record, i've read confession of an old boy by kam raslan, twice. and it's still as funny as the first time i read it. i've read 100 secrets of happy people, again and i'm still happy with the positive influence it has given me but no! i am not reading kennedy's brain again! its scary and too misterious for me to handle. please, im only 19!

mama bought something for nasya's first born. cause she bought something for nana back then. i'll be visiting her tomorrow. really, what does it feels like being a mother at early age? thats just scary. but looking at mama's face, so motherly so soft and poised, i am sure i'll be sorry for my kids. sorry sayang, mummy jahat! haha illusional gila! now i wonder who i'll be marry with, billionaire? no no, too old. a doctor? (okay i only have one person in mind. not yani! no, she's a girl but if she's a guy then that'll be out of the question!). a therapist? oh who cares, i hope too much. i just wish he's nice and never be too caught up with football matches! there i've said it!

i am pretty sure that i'll be lonelier than ever. yani is busy with God's-knows-but-im-pretty-sure-she's-busy-with-exams. na and arda got schools, afifth is too busy with well, ntah. lys went to terengganu to meet her grandparents, yana and sha is enjoying their hols back in ipoh and adib will be off to TLDM lumut next week. and don't let me start with arif, amer and all. i don't want to burst into tears now. well, at least i have raja muhammad danial. thank God.

i am currently chatting with sammy boy. we're fighting over siapa lagi jahat in school. let me update you, i am winning. haha oh well, sammy is certainly a nice boy, a hot 15 year old i must say. kenapa la kau 15? kidding. (ps: currently fighting over siapa baik!) i am so lifeless i could die.

recently i have problems trying to bare with nana the baby sister. she's been talking, a lot non stop! mama thinks that she's been speaking franch but i think she's speaking a little bit of spanish, bahasa and probably a little kelantanese. yes, you should hear her. she's hilarious! well, till i update my boring life blog, later!

cause im sexy like that

finally, exam is ooooooooooooooooover! *jump around*. i am so glad, i can't stop smiling. haha boleh ke macam tu? anyway, i'd like to wish mama and all the mother in the world, happy mother's day! we didn't celebrate though, cause mama always tell us that mother's day is everyday not just one particular day. i totally agree. you're an inspiration mama. i love you wholeheartedly.

i must say that i am pretty much happy with everything that is happening around me. no more migraine over the smallest thing or what so not. i had a long chat with mama and daddy on our way back home from my apartment. of course i get annoyed cause they told me the same thing over and over again but well they got point! i can't tell you what it is, oh well. never mind, all i'd like to say is thank you daddy. thank you mama. you guys are the shitz! :D (in a good way).

i told daddy that i need to go to the dentist and fast! my teeth is killing me, gigi tumbuh doh :( oh well. i'm so cought up with house chores these days (gila hebat kan?) HAHAHA! well, mama said if i help out around the house, i could go where ever i want. i want holiday :( i need it so badly.

cheap cheaper cheapest

ouh man, i am soooo tired. fyi (which just maybe you don't want to know but i really don't care) i just got back from our rented apartment in section 7. God, its so far away from college and daddy is so going to kill me. :( but anyway, it was fun. it is, REALLY. we went by cab and cost us about RM16 from hostel where we're currently staying. but that's not the fun part. we reach there at about 9 or so and depan our apartment ada stalls, 13hours shisha stall and packs of hot hunks. hahaha. okay, its fun but not as weird as i just make it sound. but i had to say the security rocks, top notch!

we had ryan, odan, alam and this dude name aizi over at about 3 or 4? and they drive us insane. at least they drive ME insane. oh man, i have no moods to update now. i am so full and sleepy and i have test tomorrow. chao

disturbing

can i curse this once, please please. okay wifi sucks, fuck fuck fuck! now, i'm good. anyway, sha went to sunway with odan and i am soooo tired of sunway doh. yana's upstairs on her bed singing god knows what? haha :D anyway, i don't appriciate my ex boyfriend coming back to me now, so shoosh, aku tak nak. HAHAHA!

anyway, this morning i had my account test. god knows how i did but yesterday i studied for 10 hours straight! none stop doh, i am so proud of myself okay. well, just glad its over and no more balance b/d , balance c/d what so not. i am just glad to be glad. right now, i'm watching bed time stories for ntah brapa kali. i'm in need for some serious entertainment. i am still sleepy and oh yes i'm annoyed of the fact that i'm hungry. i need food so bad, i almost cry :(

she was right all along

god, i have exams tomorrow. yet, my mood swings is killing me and i can't focus nor can i find that aura to study. typical? yes. those are just excuses. god, my perception on holidays may have change for these past few days. no whining from yana go all "yelah, aku jela kena!" or not hearing sha's talking on the phone at night. just me in my room playing on the guitar with my phone by my side while onlining. oh well, at least i'll be starting work soon. to a brighter future we shall head!

haha , lol.

omg, this room is so hot. i don't know why. felt like taking off all my clothes and sit under the fan without feeling sorry for those who saw me. haha crap gila. i am sweating and bored. can't you see this? i am so bored, i painted my nails red! oh man. gemok is so stressed out lately with his exams and all, i really miss him. oh well. till next time.

xoxo

way up high

why do you come back when i need you the least? i am bloody serious when i told you that i don't need you. i don't! i mean, tak faham bahasa ke apa kau? syg syg semua. menyampah reading all those text messages. ew :/

omg, here come another one.

its best to keep in mind that its always nice to know when to quit and shut up? ah apa aku merepek ni. i'm trying to make a point but wasn't sure what the point is. hahaha. i hate people telling me the same thing twice. anything twice. it gave me migraine doh. i can't imagine myself giving him the fifth chance of making me look like a fool yes? omg, i just typed food. haha lapar doh.

(... ape kena dgn i ni heh?)

anyway, the point is. i don't want you in my life anymore! go go go away! (i lapar :()

the time has come

the time has finally come for us to take out those champagne and celebrate. victory to shah idrawani (tomok)! hahaha. wo wo, didn't see that one coming do you? haha. okay, i am not his biggest fan or anything, I'M NOT! seriously, i'm not. i've never watch oiam season 3 before and only tonight that i know that tomok was one of the top 3. although i never watch those weekly concerts, i know. some how i have the ability to predict the future? haha maybe. really wish that was true don't we?

anyway, the damage is done. congrats tomok! hehe, apparently everyone in the house is cheering and supporting you. and when awal declaired you as the winner, i can see the big smile in everyone's faces. of course we didn't vote or watch, but still it felt good because the winner deserve the award. so cheers, good sleep tonight :D

i guess i should

congrats! to nasyareena ; hot 19 year old mother sebab safely deliver her baby when we're busy with our eco paper? yes. congrats! her baby is named puteri darnisya or something. just thought as an old friend, i should congrats her.

good luck on being a great mama sya! :)