you and I

I've finally overcome the biggest fear in the book. I've finally allow my personal space to be invaded without feeling scared. Now booyah, you got nothing on me! Oh and I decided not to trim my hair. I want it to grow long and wavy like Ashley Tisdale's! Hehe. Now now, you can't stop me from dreaming. Oh no you can't!

I need to fix my friendship with Muiz. Things had been hectic between us. Man, I screw up big time. I owe him an apology and KFC.

I need to be inspired

I'm down. Hope you are in some ways.. happy hearing 'em. I shampooed my hair after one long tiring day and found out that my hair is too thick. I also found out that my stomach ache is actually more painful than before and I finally realize that my worst fear is currently happening and I was busy being a total doofus to see it.

I had to be honest with you. After two hours of forcing my brains to write down a perfect 400 words essay, I'm not really in the mood to post anything long. So, sorry. Later alright?

you're the sun that breaks the storm

Ismi Afqh Ramli, askunu fi' Sbg Jaya. Wa Anta?

Haha sorry. I felt like my brains aren't working perfectly right now. Macam BOOM! and the next thing I knew, my brain cells went down to my foot. Cookooo!

Actually its either that or the heartbreak Mr Big had given me. Its not really a heartbreak. I'm not sure what it is but its something alright. Oh but please don't hate Mr Big. He's a sweetheart, a darling. Can't find someone quite like that anymore these days. I'm going to miss him so much :(

Tomorrow is English test. I better aced that. Oh and I may flunked Eco before but I'm going to make sure that will never happen again!

20's a big number

Well hello readers! Thanks for tuning in. That's very nice of you (: Tonight I'm feeling a little heavy. Wait, its not about the weight. I felt heavy knowing that I'll be turning 20 soon. I'll be old before everyone else! I'll be having more and more responsibilities but its fine. I'm sure I'll be just fine.

I went shopping with Niena to a warehouse sale in Shah Alam. Woot! I enjoy warehouse sale. Come to think of it, I enjoy any type of sales! So does Niena but well I got it from her and apparently Nana or baby sister is shopaholic in the making! I was planning to take pictures but shit man, the warehouse sale is like designer handbags heaven! I was lost in plaid fabrics, beautiful bright colors and Polo.

Oh and I bought myself a Moo Doll. What the hell is a Moo Doll? Ha, I'll post pictures of him tomorrow. I named him Mr Big and he represent someone.

Haha, sorry for being so lame tonight.

let him shine

Its 4.21 pm and its raining outside. I'm doing my usual routine after Iya left for school; had lunch, went online while waiting for Hariz to come home, work on some skills while listening to songs on my phone until I fell asleep. This routine goes on every day, unless I have some occasion to attend or perhaps some extra chores. Well, who am I to complain?

Anyway, I was browsing through YouTube and I found a new video posted by my good friend Danial. It was his cover of Collide by Howie Day and it was amazing. The boy will go some where with that talent. Not that I hate the original version, I just like his cover better. Perhaps we don't see eye to eye on this but well, try listening to Danial's cover. You'll love it.

Raja Muhamad Danial's YouTube page; Click it.

He has a few covers in his hand and I hope he will post more soon. Danial! My request!! Come home by One Republic! Oh and I'm still waiting for Details on the Fabric.

Well, see you.

everything that we could be

I'd like to have Sarah Jessica Parker's big closet in Sex In The City. I believe I could store everything I ever owned in there! But I'm sure, I'll get a major 'Yes' from Mama; cause then she won't see any of my clothes lying around on the floor but of course a big 'No' from Papa. Gotta need a lot of them greens to give me one hell of a closet like that. Case close!

I've been listening to John Mayer every day! One of my favorites; slow dancing in a burning room. Ahh man, Mayer is effing hot! I repeat, HOT! Do we have guys like that in Malaysia? Cause if we do, then he should marry me. Loving mother, supportive wife.. Whats not to love? :P Nah, just kidding. But Mayer is definitely on top of the list. Danial says I'm exaggerating, but he just couldn't feel the love. I do, I obviously do.

But enough of that. Tak dapat John Mayer pun takpa. I already have my own. Dia laaaagggi handsome. Hilarious. Coooooooooomel.... Ah sudah sudah lah tu. Bye!

His sister's beautiful

I was on the phone with Kak Zyra few moments ago. You gotta love her man! She's so funny. Wait, no sugar coating here alright. And yes, after exam. Can't wait.

I was on the phone few days back with Danial, Kak Zyra's brother and my best boy friend (there's a fine line between boyfriend and boy friend) in the whole wide world. We made plans to play paint ball this Thursday but no thanks to final exam, the plan were canceled. Booo. Oh and Kak Zyra, to be honest with you.. Danial taught me how to pronounce your name.

Yours Truly : You ajak la Kak Zyra (I pronounce it as Ziirah) along!
Danial : Who is that?
Yours Truly : Doi, your sister la bengong.
Danial : My sister is Kak Zyra (He pronounce it as Zairah) lah!
Yours Truly : Oh sorry, I didnt know that.

At the end of the day, I learn how to love the pronunciation of your name. Since my sister had the same name as yours, I decided to call her that too. But man, it fits you better! :)

Thank you (:

say goodbye ignorance

note to self :
stop blaming others because they told on you stop being so bloody selfish stop being a pain to daddy stop putting mummy on roller coaster rides stop putting on long faces and pouts just to get off trouble

They called me the 'brave' one. The one who always get off the hook yet the same one who always gets the blame. I'm like Emma Roberts in wild child.. without the LV begs and Jimmy Choo's. Your no is my yes and your yes is my fucking yes. Although I could be really predictable, I could in some ways be a little mysterious and fucking believers.

I hate being all emo and post silly entries and laugh later on. I hate showing my weaker side.. being squashed by some anonymous. If you could see me right now, all you could see is a girl with eye begs. Ugly, sad, depressing, a little angry but still adoring. But I'm glad that even on my downright moments, I still have someone to depend on or at least giving me shoulder to cry on or telephone bills and what not. You know who you are.


So.. from today onwards, I declare you.. Mr Power. Cause no one deserve it, as much as you do. Im going to miss you so bad now. Shit, I miss you already :(

Now, lets put a stop to this madness.

Back To Basic

I am truly sorry for not updating. Things has gone way way out of hand this time around and all the hectic shits has been ruining my life. I havent been online for quite some time now that I almost forgot the password to all my online accounts. Eff.

I just finish shooting some lame episodes for my arabic assignments which if I got the chance to rate, it'll be 4/100 but since I was in it.. its 101/100. Hold the applause. Ever since some 'unfortunate event' happens between me and one of my good friend, I am kinda grateful cause there are still certain 'nice' people around. M and H which I wont ever mention here cause then you'll think that you guys are too cool. Which in my defense you are not.

I am sorry for not having time to read Kak Zyra's blog, chatting with Danial, wall climbing with F and seeing a few friends. I'll make it up to you, I swear.

Oh and Lyss, I'll be coming home tomorrow. Make sure you have enough popcorn to last the whole night.

This is it. Its finally over.

Swollen eyes, please go away before Daddy sees you. I'm sure he'll be upset and miserable. I had dissapoint him enough, I am not letting myself to do that to him anymore. No more. No more boyfriends, no more spending money on handbegs (although I wont bet on it) and no more outings! I promise I'll try. For Daddy. My Daddy, my old man Mr Ramli.

I have to admit, Lys was right. I was on autopilot the whole time. I lost sight of whats important to me all along. Things I am good at, enjoying myself.. those important things. Man, I had wasted too many precious time. I promise that wont happen again. I hope. Wait, stop hoping! I am sure!

Enthusiastic gila. Eff.

Exam was tough. I mean, seriously tough. I should start obeying my kickass studying time table before final exam comes in for a candle light date. Adi and I are okay now. Hehe thank God la. I wouldn't want to loose one extremely hot korean looking dude. Kidding. You should see his hair when he took off his helmet. It was effing funneh. And oh I finally put my trust on Naim when it comes to riding motorcycle. I will only ride the effing two wheels when I had to.

Wait, come to think of it.. I have a lot of awesome friends! How about you? :)

(this is what happen when i have a lot to blog about. plus nana and iya is sitting on top of me as i am lying down in front of my laptop.)